Dear Baby James,
How is it that you are already six months old? I feel like I just told your dad I was pregnant a couple of weeks ago. How is it that you grew so big so fast? I wish you could just stay this little forever! Why does time seem to go by faster now than it did before you were born? I need time to slow down just a little bit. How is it that you have taught me more in the last six months than I have learned in my entire life? I thought when you were born I was going to be your teacher, I didn't think you were going to be mine, too!
Since you made your entrance into this world you have taught me that no amount of research can fully prepare you for being a new parent. I have learned that baby snuggles make the world go round, there is absolutely nothing they can't fix. You have taught me that it's possible to feel happy and sad and scared and excited all at once, and it happens a LOT! I have learned that it is better just to catch the spit up in your hand than to clean it off whatever it was going to land on instead. You have taught me that it's okay to slow down and rest, the dirty dishes in the sink are not going to kill anyone. I have learned to appreciate my mom so much more than I already did. You have taught me to be thankful that I chose not only the best partner for me, but also the best dad for you. I learned, yes, that much poop can come out of something that small. But most importantly, you have taught me that I have way more strength, patience, and love than I could have ever imagined.
The last six months have been nothing like I expected them to be, but in the best ways possible, and it's hard to remember how we ever lived our lives without you. Each new day, brings new changes and challenges and I'm happy I get to conquer them along side you. Even though I'm a little sad you will never be this little again, I am so excited to watch you grow and learn! But instead of being happy-sad thinking about you getting bigger, I am going to snuggle you longer, give you extra kisses, and look at all the photos I have from the last six months while you nap! Happy Half-Birthday James!